A Baby and an Actual Baby.

Happy Wednesday, Guys!

Last week, I mentioned that I finally got to meet my little nephew, Evan. One of my dearest friends gave birth to him in January and just recently moved back to Chicago after living NW for quite some time.

Evan is the most beautiful little boy, and I instantly fell in love with him. He is so cozy, and calm, and although I heard he has a cry that is equivalent to a Michael Jackson screech, I didn’t get to witness it. Nope, instead he laid in my arms and slept and smiled, and opened his eyes for a few seconds, and slept, and smiled.

Olivia didn’t really show too much interest in him, but she didn’t get jealous while I was holding him, either, which I must admit, was a little surprising. The only time she started to act up, was when she saw me feed Evan a bottle of milk. I don’t know if she didn’t like the fact that I was feeding some one else, or if she just wanted a bottle  because we gave her milk in her sippy cup and she still wasn’t satisfied.

I can’t wait to see the two of them grow up together, and I am so thankful that Alexis decided to move back home!

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And then Alexis sent me a few that she took from her phone:

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I already can’t wait until the next time I get to see him :)



P.S. Last night, I had very ripe bananas that I needed to use, so I pulled up a recipe for ‘Toddler Muffins’ and this is the one I used. They were SO good. I put some chocolate chips in a few of them for Dominic and me, but I actually really liked them without. Next time, I’ll probably sneak in some carrots or use sweet potatoes. Olivia really does not care for bananas (or anything really….although she is getting a little better) but she LOVED these muffins, and that is enough for me to make them over and over again :)



Just some lists.

Before I left for Galena, I made a few different lists. Have I mentioned how much I love making lists?

I made a ‘To Pack’, a ‘To Buy’ (before leaving for Galena), a ‘To Buy’ (while I was in Galena), and a ‘Things I want to get accomplished’ (while I was in Galena). The ‘Things I wanted to get accomplished’ went a little something like this:


*organize registry *make an organized address list *fill out save the dates *pick out color schemes for the wedding party’s outfits *finalize Olivia’s outfit *pick out a few etsy items *look up more DIY *figure out Bridal Shower *look for cute wedding stuff in Galena *figure out hair and makeup

-Write a few posts

-Organize my pictures and finally get some up in frames (and get all of the others onto my external hard drive so my computer isn’t so slow)

-Figure out Photoshop

-Make shopping list

Guess which ones I was able to check off the list?

None of them.

I am DEAD serious. I was in such a relaxing state, that I did not do one thing that I wrote on my ‘Things I want to get accomplished’ list. I really want to feel bad about it, but I don’t. I needed that little clearing of the mind and I am more than satisfied with coming home completely inspired. Besides, that counts as some sort of accomplishment, right?

Today I am taking the day to get a few of those things checked off, but before I sign off, I would love to hear some of your recommendations for cute etsy shops (mainly wedding, also looking for a cute tote/diaper bag), and if you have any sites, advice or tips/tricks on learning Photoshop (Dominic got me Photoshop Elements 11 for Christmas).

You can leave it all in the comments, or email me at ohheybabyblog@gmail.com

Thanks in advance!



P.S. Olivia’s TOMS finally came in the mail yesterday! I mentioned a few weeks ago that Zulily was having a huge sale on Tiny TOMS, and we ordered her three pairs! They are even cuter than I could’ve ever imagined and they are so small. Olivia is usually a size 3, but I ordered a size 4 in each the black and cream, and 4 1/2 in red. I heard that TOMS run small, so I was super worried that it would take Olivia for-ev-er to grow into them, but they almost fit her perfectly and I cannot wait to put them on her all the time. Also on my mind? Buying matching ones so that we can match…….I’m only half kidding ;)


Weekend Review- Anniversary Getaway Edition.

Hi everyone!

As I said before, this weekend Dominic, his parents, Olivia and I went to Galena. Dominic and I wanted to have a nice little getaway for our anniversary -6 years today!- and his mom’s boss has a beautiful home in Galena that was perfect for anniversary celebrating. It was so relaxing, and refreshing and I came back nice and inspired.

Fact: I am terrible at picking pictures to share, so I am warning you now….there are a lot of pictures ahead. I’m talkin in the hundreds. I can’t help myself!


On Friday, Dominic, Olivia and I woke up nice and early to leave for Galena. We left early because we didn’t want to waste a whole day that we could’ve spent relaxing. So, we dressed in our comfiest travel attire, stopped for bagels and coffee at DD and hit the road.


About 3/4 of the way there, we stopped to get gas and stretch our legs. Olivia had just woken up (she was an angel this whole trip with being in the car!) and she was definitely ready to get out for a little while. We got some snacks, we bought some lottery tickets and just let her run around for 15 minutes.

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Once we arrived, we were welcomed with a beautiful fire, and the smell of Nick’s favorite chili (Nick and Nancy came up on Thursday evening.) Olivia was mesmerized by the fire and kept whispering ‘Hot‘, and the chili was amaze like always. She also had to explore the house a little, of course.

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It was seriously such a beautiful, sunny day (also the only beautiful, sunny day this weekend), that we decided to visit downtown Galena after we ate lunch. I love Downtown Galena. It is seriously so quaint and has the cutest little shops. I had a list of just a few things I wanted to get while I was down there: popcorn (they have their own popcorn store), a specialty coffee (almost didn’t get it!), Minnetonka’s for Olivia (they didn’t have kids sizes! Boo!) and a candle (didn’t get one of those.)

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The Great American Popcorn Co is such an awesome store. They make all of their popcorn right there and they have the wildest flavors. All of them sound so good, but we stuck to a Chicago mix that has cheddar, caramel, and butter. I’ve tried other flavors before though and every one that we’ve had has always been delicious.

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Shout out to Galena Candle Company for having exactly what we were looking for. While I could’ve gotten a candle here, at the time we were looking for salts to use in the bath (I feel really weird saying bath salts) and they had so many good smelling ones. I’m a fan of strong smelling, mint or eucalyptus scents so we got one called ‘invigorating soak’. We used it that night….hea-ven.DSC01845edit DSC01846edit

And Oh. Em. Gee. Afterward, we went to this cute little coffee shop. I don’t know HOW we’ve never been there before, but it was seriously SO perfect. Only a handful of people know this about me (up until now), but my dream is to open this place where it’s a coffee shop on the bottom, and a bakery on the top. I have this perfect picture in my head of what I would want it to look like and  it includes a spot where bands can come in to perform and get their name out (I loved going to shows in high school), and mismatched furniture. Well guess what, this was exactly that kind of place….although I’m sure there aren’t too many punk-rock/indie bands performing there…. I was in my own kind of heaven, I didn’t want to leave. And the coffee was delicious. I got a caramel latte.

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We walked around a little more, shopped a little more (I found Olivia the cutest headbands!), and then the sun went down, so it got cold fast, and then we headed back.

I’m not really sure what it is about Galena, but we always eat like kings when we’re there. Seriously. It has turned into some unspoken tradition that we eat ribs at least once while we’re there. It’s also my favorite unspoken tradition. This fatty loves ribs. Olivia even ate them, they were so good! After we ate, we decided to give Olivia a bath in their huge master bathtub. We put a towel under her so she wouldn’t slip and be traumatized, and she had a blast. Water child for sure and also the best baby for sure (but I’m a bit biased).

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Once we were finally able to get her out of the beloved tub, we put her in her pjs, gave her some milk, and she was out.

Dominic and I have a king bed, so it’s big enough to share with Olivia, but here, the biggest bed is a queen and although it may sound like it’s also big enough, I can assure you that it is not. We borrowed a play pen from my grandma, and although I don’t like playpens (I refer to them as baby jails), I was able to make this one comfy enough for her to hopefully sleep the night in. Of course at 4am she had it with sleeping in there and ended up in our bed anyway…..we’re suckers.

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And then Dominic and I took the most amazing bath and then we went to sleep, too!


I would just like to say a big THANK YOU to my wonderful Fiance because he let me sleep in until 11am both days that we were there. He got up with Olivia at 6am and that meant 5 whole hours of uninterrupted sleep (you read that right!) and a bed all to myself. Best. Anniversary. Gift. Ever.

After I finally woke up, we headed out to lunch. It was rainy, and gloomy out, so to lift our spirits, we went to this place called ‘Happy Joes’ and it really is as cheesy as it sounds. Fake pizza, really bad games and a very generic atmosphere. But we still made the best of it. I have no pictures to show for the food and really the only time I took out my camera was to take a picture of the fortune-teller. All she told me was that my lucky color was blue, and printed up a green card….and when Nancy did it, the fortune-teller told her that HER lucky color was green and printed her a blue card……..yeah, we were confused, too.

Nick and Nancy told us about a flea market that they wanted to check out and although Olivia was starting to get fussy and tired, we decided to see what it was all about. Let me just tell you that the term ‘Flea Market’ was totally misused and actually I don’t know what you’d call that place. It was just this huge warehouse with a mess of animals and flowers and WEIRD THINGS (like frogs on bike and 20 foot Knights) all made out of some kind of metal. The best thing about that place was the really old soda dispenser.

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And then we came back and took naps by the fire.


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And when Little Miss woke up, she just was not happy. I have no idea what was wrong with her but she was just a crabby little child.

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Regardless of her mood, the plan was to go swimming after she woke up. I knew that all we had to do was actually get her to the pool, and then she would be fine, and she was.

Quick story about her awful (but how is it still so cute on her?) bathing suit. We found out Friday morning that there was an indoor pool. Excited, we brought our swim suits but Olivia didn’t have one that fit her. We figured that since we knew the Targets and Wal-Marts around here sold summer stuff, surely the stores out there would, too. WRONG! We looked all throughout downtown Galena for a bathing suit and even at Wal-Mart and this ugly pink thing was all that they offered. It had an attachable life guard jacket which was SO funny but since it didn’t actually make her float, we didn’t make her wear it. Instead, they had this really awesome ramp that went deeper as you walked down. Of course she stayed at the top end of it and had. a. blast. I love her love for water, I feel like she gets that from me. Also, ignore her full diaper, we didn’t bring her any swim diapers (we really were so unprepared). That didn’t stop her though.

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Then Dominic found the gym…the basket ball was almost as big as Olivia. Again, she didn’t mind.

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After we left, got back to the house, and got ready, we set Nick and Nancy up with everything that they needed for the few hours we’d be gone, we kissed Olivia goodnight, and we went on our date night.


I loved getting dressed up for Dominic. We drove about a half hour, to Dubuque, Iowa, and went to a casino right on Lake Michigan. The town was so cute, and much more populated, but it was so dark out that I couldn’t get any good shots. We were starving when we got there, so we ate at the most delicious buffet, had some dessert, and then went to gamble. The first time I ever went to the casino was on my 21st birthday. Nick, Nancy and Dominic took me, got my pregnant self (I was HUGE by that point) a nice non-alcoholic pina colada, and showed me the ropes. I fell in love instantly. I love playing the slot machines and Dominic and I had such a good time. We each had one drink, made a rule to not talk about Olivia (we obviously broke that rule very quickly) and just enjoyed each other’s company while playing some games.

I love going places and doing things with Dominic and I love that we went out that night to celebrate the fact that we have been together for 6 years and how much we’ve gone through and accomplished in that time. Still hard to believe that after this year, we’ll be starting all over with Wedding Anniversaries instead.


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We drove home in the scariest fog. I have never driven in fog like that before, and I was so glad to get back to the house.


Sunday after I, again, finally woke up at 11am, we started to pack up our cars. We ate lunch, and then took showers. While Dominic was in the shower, Olivia was walking around the house saying “Dada dada dada” and when she finally found him, she looked kind of interested in what he was doing, so it was only natural that we strip her and put her in there too. I thought she was gonna freak because of the water all in her face like that, but she just stood/sat there like it was nothing. I love her so much.

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We did some last-minute shenanigans, like jumping on this huge bean bag (she laughed the first time, cried the second) and then got some last-minute things into the car. We stopped into town one last time to get a lotion that Dominic is obsessed with, and a package of locally ground coffee (I got French Caramel. It smelt sooooooo good. Yum!)  from another really cute place that sells coffee and loose leaf teas, and then we hit the (VERY foggy) road back home.

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After about 2 1/2 hours, Olivia woke up and she just had this face like “Really? We’re still in the car?” And then I got her to change that face and well, that just led into a little photo shoot (shocking, I know). We decided to stop for a quick dinner at a highway Oasis about 45 minutes from home, where we were all able to stretch our legs, eat some food, and get some coffee for the road. Doesn’t the fog look so crazy?! It was, and I was amazed.


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Once we finally got home, I checked the mail (my March BIRCHBOX came! Yay!), and then we unpacked, which is definitely some sort of record for us because we usually live out of a suit case for like a week after any type of vacation. I uploaded and edited pictures, we cleaned the house, and enjoyed the rest of our Sunday just the three of us.

I think I can speak for all of us when I say that this was a MUCH needed little getaway, in which we are all refreshed, relaxed, and ready to start the week.

Happy Monday, Happy Anniversary to Dominic and Me, and Happy Birthday to one of my bffs, Carly.



10 Things Friday.

The day that I have been waiting for is FINALLY here. Dominic, Olivia and I are en route to Galena, IL and we are very excited about it.

Here are the ten things that are….

happy this week

1. Going on our little 3-day getaway, obviously. (also finding out that there’s in indoor pool. YES!!!!)


3. Olivia learning “choo choo” and shoes which actually comes out “Choos”

4. New tires.

5. Loving the same Man for 6 years and counting, and celebrating by going on a nice date on Saturday night while we’re in Galena. I already have my red lipstick on ;)

6. List-making.

7. Working with Tori on some new stuff for my blog!

8. I made the BEST Vesuvio Potatoes on Tuesday night. Seriously. I want to eat them every night now.

9. Getting the OK to get Married in the church that we wanted! An especially big deal because they had originally told us the date was already booked. (I called and begged for an earlier wedding time. They said yes!)

10. I met my perfect little nephew, Evan, last night. I’m in love and I officially have baby fever all over again.

What are 10 things that are making you happy this week? Have a good weekend, I know I plan to!! :)




I’ve seen these letters floating around the blog world, so I figure I’d give it a shot. Consider it a form a therapy, if you will.

Dear Hair,

Do something other than be thick and poofy. And if you even think about misbehaving on my wedding day, I will cut you off.

Love, Katie

Dear Charlie,

STOP BITING EVERYTHING. Pretty sure after 5 months, you’re not a puppy anymore so stop acting like it!

Love, Katie

(although Dominic always refers to me as ‘Mom’ around him…..strange….)

Dear Neighbor,

Please stop banging against the walls like you’re building a house at 11:30 at night. The first time you wake up Olivia, you will be sorry. Thanks!

Love, Katie

Dear Stomach,

Stop craving wings. You’re not getting them. We gave them up for lent and well, quite frankly, you don’t need them.

Love, Katie

Dear Winter,

Unless you plan on bringing more beautiful blizzards, I’m over you. Be gone.

Love, Katie

Dear Mailman,

Please stop bringing me junk mail. I already have cable, I’m not joining a gym and I don’t need the pizza coupons. Start bringing me letters and pretty things. You know how much I love mail.

Love, Katie

Dear Bridesmaids AKA My BFFS,

Thank you for being the best of the best to me (and Olivia).

Love, Katie

Dear Nick and Nancy,

Thank you for having Dominic. And thank you for loving me as your own. And thank you for all that you have helped us with, especially now.

Love, Katie

Dear Family,

Thank you for being there for me and Olivia and loving us always.

Love, Katie

Dear Olivia,

Thank you for being so perfect and finally sticking to a sleep schedule. You have made my life a little easier and I really enjoy the down time. Also, have you noticed how much happier you are with all that sleep? Learn now that sleep is your best friend. Well, second best friend because I’m your first….right? RIGHT?! I love you to the moon and back, sweet girl.

Love, Mama

Dear Dominic,

Thank you for working these crazy long hours to give Olivia both what we want, and more importantly, what we need. I cannot believe that next week will already be 6 years that we’ve been together and I am in even more disbelief over the fact that we will be MARRIED in exactly 6 months! I also love YOU to the moon and back.

Love, Babe

Well, that felt good. Mini vacay tomorrow!



P.S. I signed up for BIRCHBOX a few weeks ago and finally got my first box! I already really love it and if you decide to sign up, please use this link so that I can get points :) This is what it looked like, and there are also a few more samples inside that envelope labled BIRCHBOX.


A Baby and Her Newfound Love for (Eating) Snow.

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Last week, Chicago had a pretty big snow storm. The snow was coming down SO hard and it looked so beautiful.

Yes, that’s right, I’m a crazy snow lover. While I cannot wait for the nice weather, I am just a sucker for this gorgeous white stuff (Until it turns black from all the cars, anyway).

Dominic, Olivia and I were just sitting, staring out the window and I said to him, “Why do we have to sit here, and enjoy it from the inside? Let’s go outside!”

So outside we went.

And we had a great 20 minutes.

*And that’s where this post ended….up until yesterday. Yesterday we had another storm and of course I took more pictures so here they are.. I can’t help myself!

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My sister came over yesterday afternoon and we decided to take Olivia outside before her nap so that she could play in the snow.

When we were younger and it would snow, we would play outside for what felt like a lifetime, and we never wanted to come in. Our mom had to practically drag us in by our snowsuits. Playing in the snow with my daughter and my baby sister was such a treat, and it definitely brought back sweet memories of our childhood. It makes me so happy to see the love that my sister and Olivia have for each other.

Olivia is still not really sure what all this white stuff is that’s falling from the sky, but she does know one thing for sure: it tastes good. All she wanted to do (both times) was sit and eat the snow (don’t worry, we made sure it was clean). Don’t laugh because you know you used to do it, too!

It snowed a lot more yesterday than it did last week and all night I just sat and watched it fall. It is just such a magical sight and while everyone complains about it snowing again (it’s WINTER, people. Winter=snow.), I just look the other way because I love the snow. Always have, always will.

After we came inside, Olivia snuggled in her crib and was out cold for two hours, so I think it’s safe to say that she had a good time. Charlie did too, he was running around like a crazy, putting his face in all the different piles of snow.

Do you love the snow, or hate it?



P.S. Last Thursday Olivia had her 15 month well-visit and our Doctor said that she is perfect! Of course we already knew that ;) She is 20 pounds, 11 ounces, and 29 inches tall. She is in the 10th percentile for both her height and weight, which means she is still living up to her nickname, Little Shrimp. She is passing all of her 15 month milestones with flying colors. She got four shots (that she got really bad bruises from.) and he was so shocked that she knows how to say ‘More’ in sign language! It was a great visit. In fact, the only negative throughout the entire visit was when the Doctor told us that he was LEAVING in June and that we’d have to find a new pediatrician. It was seriously so heartbreaking because Dominic and I really love him.

The End of (what feels like) an Era.

I have been in such a funk these past two weeks. I know you wouldn’t be able to tell because I’m really good at hiding if something is wrong, but I can no longer deny it. My heart is broken and my own child is the one who broke it.

I have struggled to write this post all week. Seriously, I have started, and RE-started this post over and over again for two reasons. One, I honestly cannot gather the right words. Two, I still get so upset when I think about it.

I’ve thought of explaining our entire journey before getting to the point, but I figure that may be more than you all care to even know. However, I will tell you this: No one prepares you for something like this. Such a fragile, precious, genuine bond that you create by breastfeeding your child, it’s something that you won’t understand until you’ve done it.


Our normal bed time routine goes a little something like this: bath, a little play (under a dimmed light), a story or two, and then I nurse her to sleep and then transport her into her crib.

Well, two weeks ago, Olivia and I were up in her room going through that routine and as I was changing her into her pjs, I noticed she looked super exhausted, and then I just did it. I kissed her goodnight, put her in her crib, and rubbed her back. For the first time ever, she didn’t scream when I put her in the crib. In fact, she was out cold in less than 10 minutes. What I felt afterward was something I never expected to happen.

I held it in until I got downstairs. I sat on the couch and called one of my friends, Steph, and she said, “Hello?” and I said “Hi, if I cry while we’re talking don’t freak out. I’m just really upset.” and she asked, “She went to sleep with out the boob, didn’t she?” And that was all it took. In seconds, I was basically sitting in a puddle of water from how much I was crying.


I knew it was coming, we were only down to nursing at night, but this soon?

How could she do this to me? How was she so able to fall asleep without needing me? We’re not ready to stop. She still needs me. She was just super tired. It’ll go back to normal tomorrow.

But I knew that we were ready. I was slowly making less and less milk (because she was only nursing once a day) and I knew that this time was coming and although it came faster than I had expected, I needed to stick with it and not give in.

The second night was the toughest. She cried for 20 minutes and would point at my boobs and I would have to shake my head because if I would’ve actually muttered the word no, I probably would’ve started crying right along with her. It. Was. So. Hard., not to mention heartbreaking. I knew what she wanted, I knew why she was crying, but I also knew that she was okay and that we could do this. And you know what? We did.

Of course after she finally fell asleep, I came downstairs and cried my eyes out again while simultaneously stuffing sympathy Oreos in my mouth.

I knew that I had to stick to a routine and not confuse her. If I had given in even on the third night, she would expect it again the next night and be so confused as to why I basically just teased her.

For the first week and a half, I was just flat-out bitchy. And depressed. I know that sounds so dramatic, but it’s true. I was mean, and sad, and would cry when she would go to bed without me. Honestly, I thought it was just me being upset. But did you know that it’s an actual thing? Weaning actually has side effects. Thank you, Natalie, for pointing that out.

Knowing that it was normal, I was able to understand (and Dominic was able to, too) what I was going through a little better, because I was able to google things and read blog posts from other women, but it didn’t make it easier. I started blaming myself for not cherishing our nursing time a little more, and even for not taking more pictures to remember our sweet moments together.


Breastfeeding Olivia was a far greater experience than I had ever expected. It was something that I found that I was really good at doing, and I was really proud of it. I loved to tell people I exclusively breastfed Olivia and when I went to the doctor for her well-visits, I would get praised for making it so far and I loved that. Not one part of me was ever once ashamed to breastfeed Olivia. It was the one thing that only I could give her. No one else could feed her or comfort her in that way, only me. And that was gone. The way I looked at it was that now I was just like any other person in her life, nothing special. I wasn’t giving her any special milk that my body created solely for her, and we didn’t have that special nursing bond anymore, so what did we have?

The mother-daughter bond. Duh, Katie.

I was so devastated by the fact that I was no longer going to have this nursing bond, and that she wasn’t going to want to cuddle me, or maybe wouldn’t even love me the same way, that I completely took away from the fact that I am her Mother. I brought her into this world and we are always going to have that bond, the I-baked-you-for-nine-months-and-then-birthed-you bond, the mother-daughter bond, and no one else can have that bond or do that job either. Only I can be her Mother, and I was so caught up in the fact that I was no longer nursing her, that I forgot that (very) important little detail.

Even though we are done with the nursing chapter in our lives, we have so many other moments that are going to keep us bonded and together. This is my little baby, growing up into a tiny human, learning to do things for herself and it is so hard to witness, but in the most joyous way possible. I won’t lie, if she would’ve given me trouble on that third night, I probably would’ve given in and justified it by telling myself, and every one else, that she just wasn’t ready. Honestly, I would’ve nursed her all the way to college if she really wanted me to.

I still find myself secretly hoping that she’ll want to go back, and I know that’s normal. But I also know that she is not, and it’s good that she isn’t otherwise we would be going through this all over again, and then I’d have to write another blog post while trying to hold back the water works. It’s hard, and sometimes I will still get really really sad over it, and I let myself feel sad, and then I move on and tell myself that it’s all okay.

(Because as much as it feels like it’s not okay, it is.)

Dominic brought me home roses last week because he knows I’m sad. I know he says he understands, but how can he really get it? But man do I love him for being there for me, as always. I am also trying to make myself feel better by thinking about the things that I can do again…..my body will once again be just mine, I won’t have to worry about leaving her with someone else and her not eat or drink anything, I can drink as much coffee as I want without worrying she’ll get too much caffeine, and I can get super drunk if I want to. Although let’s be real, that last part probably won’t happen.

But the best thing about this whole situation so far -and this really is making it so much easier- Olivia gets up around 6:30am and Dominic brings her in our bed. Before, she would point at my boobs, now she drinks some milk from her bottle, and then the only way she will go back to sleep is if she is laying on my arm, with her two little arms around my neck, and our faces are touching. I swear to you, I am not making that up. It is literally the most heavenly thing ever and I hope that she doesn’t grow out of that any time soon because I love it so much. I love her so much.

I will never forget that nursing bond, and how special it is, but I’m here to let you know that even after that special bond has come to an end, that little human is still your child.

And that is the most special bond you will ever have.



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P.S. This is strictly from my view as a breastfeeding mom. I am not trying to take the bond away from mother’s who cannot or choose not to breastfeed.

P.P.S If you didn’t click on the ‘Natalie’ link above, I suggest clicking it now. Her post was so unbelievably raw, and inspiring and actually motivated me to finish this post.

P.P.S.S This article by A Cup of Jo is also related to depression/weaning. It is a real thing, mamas, so don’t be ashamed.

Weekend Review.

We brought in the first weekend of March on a real calm note. What did you do this weekend?


Friday morning Dominic let me sleep in and took Olivia downstairs for a little while. This is what I woke up to.

Two peas in a pod, those two.

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Even though we all woke up feeling much better, we still decided to lounge around in our pjs all day.  (And yes, those are Santa Claus’ all over her pjs). My grandma stopped by with her BFF, Renne’ (aka Grandma Ree). She hasn’t seen Olivia and quite some time, so it was nice to see her. She’s always so good to Olivia and treats her like her own, and I really love that. She brought Olivia a new Olivia book, which Olivia has already bitten a hole into in the back of the book. Real cute, daughter. Realllllllll cute.

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Friday is also Brideday. If you don’t already know, TLC has Brideday every friday and plays marathons of all the wedding shows. One of my girlfriends, Stef, comes over on Fridays and we make dinner and drinks, and watch TLC all night. This time for dinner, we made Pesto Pizza. The pictures really do not do the pizza justice. It. Was. SO. Good. My bff, Mandy, also stopped by, but only for a little while. I love when they come over, and so does Olivia :)

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My sister brought our little niece, Elianie, along and I feel like I haven’t seen her in months. She has gotten so big far too fast and I don’t like it, but she is turning into such a smart and beautiful little girl. She refers to Olivia as Princess Olivia, I don’t really know why, but it’s so cute nonetheless. When they got to my house, Olivia was still taking a nap and once she woke up, Elianie just couldn’t keep her hands off of Olivia. Olivia loves Elianie, and they have the sweetest little relationship that just makes my heart melt. Elianie hasn’t seen Olivia since she’s learned how to walk so while Olivia was walking around our living room Elianie said, “Princess Olivia, you can walk now! I’m so proud of you.”  And then I died because I just could not handle the sweetness.

My dad had mentioned at the beginning of the week that he was going to take us to Outback Steakhouse…um, yum. My sister and I are obsessed with that place and want to go there every chance we get!

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Afterward, we went to Wal-Mart. I’ll just go on record and say that I really do not like Wal-Mart. (#TeamTarget) It’s always dirty in there and 75% of the people who work there look and act like they don’t want to be there, but I do like the prices. So, for practical things (paper goods, nail polish, even some food), it’s cheaper to shop there than other places. There, I said it. Anyway, this time around, we needed garbage bags, and Olivia’s little crunchy puffs.

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After we dropped off my sister and Elianie, my Dad came by to hang out with Olivia and I before she went to bed. We watched cartoons, drank milk, and then she fell asleep holding her little bear by the leg.

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Olivia jumped in bed with us at around 7:30, 8 o’clock and then we slept in until 11:30am. It was glorious! When we finally rolled out of bed, Dominic made us blueberry pancakes for breakfast, for the first time since Tuesday (that’s a long time in this house!). They were delicious, per usual.

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We get really sad when Dominic leaves for work after having such a nice morning, so we cuddle on the couch and pout about it.


Once we finally got over it, we got dressed and went with his parents to the –wait for it– mall (are any of you surprised?)

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Olivia skipped her nap, so I was really confident that she would knock out pretty quickly, but alas, I was wrong. She still gave me a little trouble because she wanted to just hang out with me. I’m flattered that she thinks I’m so fun.

Next weekend, Dominic and I are celebrating our anniversary (6 years!) by going to a beautiful town called Galena. Dominic’s mom’s boss owns a house out there that we usually frequent in the summer, but this is actually our first time going when it’s colder out. We are all very excited to get out-of-town for a few days, and I’m excited to spend next Saturday evening being young and crazy with my love. I’m also hoping to get a lot of wedding stuff organized. It is always so nice and peaceful and it’s seriously ALL I’ve been thinking about all weekend. His parents are leaving Thursday and because Dominic was only able to get Friday, Saturday, Sunday off, we’re meeting them up there early Friday afternoon. I pray this week goes by super fast!

Happy Monday, All!



P.S. This month, I have joined Lauren’s Hello Box. It is a cute little monthly program where she pairs us up with another blogger to get to know a little better. This month my blog-friend is Amanda over at My Very Own Modern Family. Everybody go on over and say Hi to Amanda!

10 Things Friday.

Friday, Friday, Friday…..it took you long enough to get here….and you brought March 1st with you!

(I cannot believe that it’s already March.)

I don’t remember time flying by this fast before having Olivia….I guess let’s not go there right now!

This week, these are the Ten…

mama blogs

I was honestly sitting here, trying to write different reasons why I loved each blog, but I found that my answers were basically all the same. These beautiful Mamas are stylish, have adorable babies that are also stylish, they’re funny, honest, informative, genuine, inspiring and they write from the Heart. All of my favvvvvvorite things!

1. Brandy from Heart & Habit

2. Joanna from A Cup of Jo

3. Jess from Boho Baby Bump

4. Mandy from Harper’s Happenings

5. Natalie from Nat the Fat Rat

6. Melissa from Dear Baby

7. Taza from Love, Taza|Rockstar Diaries

8. Lauren from The Little Things We Do

9. Jen from Jen Loves Kev

10. Kristen from Oh Happy Miracle

These Mamas are all on my Bloglovin’ feed because I just can’t get enough!  I’m sure most of you already have them bookmarked, but if you don’t, well then I have just prepared your weekend reading. You’re welcome!

Have a good weekend, friends!



The Best Baby in All of The Land.

This is a shout-out to our girl….because she deserves it after yesterday.

Tuesday evening, Olivia and I were hanging out, like we always do, when I started to feel really sick. I felt so sick that I put her to sleep a half hour early, and marched my booty right to bed. I was vomiting, I had a really bad fever, chills, aches, it all came at me so fast and I literally felt like I was dying.

Little did I know that Dominic was coming home feeling the exact same way.

It was so ridiculous. I cannot recall us ever both being so sick at the exact same time. We were up. all. night.

Olivia still doesn’t sleep through the night, she usually wakes up once around 3/3:30am, so I kept wondering if one of us was going to be able to….um…contain….ourselves long enough to put her back to sleep.

But guess what? She never woke up.

Our girl slept 10 full hours, and then I started to freak out -because that has never ever happened- so I sent Dominic in to check on her and she must’ve heard him, because she woke up instantly. I said, “Just bring her in here, I miss her.” So he did, and she cuddled me, and the three of us fell asleep for 3 more hours.

After she woke up again, Dominic took her downstairs and let me sleep for another 2 hours, and then we switched off and he went upstairs to bed and I stayed downstairs with her.

We were still both so sick all day and we were the most boring parents ever. I swear, she looked so bored and I felt so bad.

But it was like she knew that something was wrong. It was like she knew that we needed a calm, relaxing day because that’s exactly what she gave us.

Olivia is typically a very mellow baby. Don’t get me wrong, she has definitely had her moments (especially lately) but overall she is pretty good. And yesterday was no exception. She was like an angel baby. She played quietly by herself, she was laughing with Charlie (our dog), sat on my lap, watched cartoons…as a matter of fact, now that I’m thinking about it, I don’t think she cried once. She was so content, and calm, just plain old good. She was just such a good girl.

If she was able to understand the term “reward” yet, she would’ve gotten one, that’s for sure. Instead, I just kept kissing her cheeks saying, “Thank you for being such a good girl today. I’m sorry we were boring, tomorrow we’ll go out.” (as if she knew what I was saying.)

So today, that’s what we did. We went and got a nice lunch at Panera, and then we started our wedding registry (more on that next week!). We could tell that she was very happy to be out for a few hours, and it was nice to get some fresh air after being cooped up in the house with the worst sickness in all of the land (at least that’s how it felt in that moment).

We really thought that with both of us having the stomach flu, and having to entertain a baby at the same time, it was going to be one hell of a long day. And it was. At least the whole having the stomach flu part. The entertaining a baby part? Well, we have the best baby in all of the land, which means, we still win. Take that, stomach flu!